As some of you may already know, I was taken away by the men in White Coats that you hear of when you are a child,

Well,the men in white coats really did come for me and they were very nice men and they took me out of that awful claustrophobic jail cell in which I`d been absolutely `Thundering out` for by that point-well,gours and hours on end...

I explained to them that a large part of it was I felt invisible/unseen energies/dead stuff or `ones from other domensions` deliberately winding me up and making me worse,even though at the same time-I can see how a proffessional or medical person might struggle with taking these things on about you,necause I myself am simlaer...

I really need to see a thing with my own wyes,,but again-it is like going back to that Movie Open Water...

I couldn`t see a thing, but my nervous system was shot to threads, I knew that there was deep,daek and intense(potent) energies(like sharks in the water) continually `r`ubbing up against me` or `there or there-abouts` and for the most part I am deeply glad that I could not see them,necause in a way,maybe not seeing them was my strenhth, (it`s harder to be over-awwed/iuntimidated and a good thing I think,to not knoww hat you`ve been made the unwilling Star of Show of,

I know a lot of it was very intense and I don`t think I ever really wanted `in`,so to speak///I recall smashing up my house in a rage just a few days into it(for by then you see-it was entrapment and I`d been `entrapped` by these mysterious `others` whether I liked it or not,

It seems the beginning thing with me was (for them) facing me up to and against an old foe frlom long ago,

(a shadow self-so to speak)

 This `shadow self` pf mine is an absolute Tank, a giant both in Earth and on Heaven,it was a skilled ceremonial service performed for me at the top(or karmic end) by Hermes Thoth of Ancient Egypt and now at present,the Ruler of Heaven,

It was he that performed this intruiging little service for me...

Yes,me and this other guy are what you might call `eternal enemies`,but there is a great respect there and it is kind of like `he hets one side of the road to do as he likes on and I get the other...maybe there is a line splitting us down the middle,but like I say,he is a giant and so I am/was always on total alert(maybe at the very top of myself around him)

The energy of he and I joined went straight ovrer everything in the Universe,basically,

The two of us joined were doing all kinds of weird and wonderful(ages old stuff forgotten/total alchemy,uou might say,jow can I describe it...

At one point we(he and I were entwined like 2 joined curls of DNA and it seemed like the energy of us joined together was just taking everything and everyone back in time...

a lomh,long,long way back in time...erm,to a time like-when the trees still did stuff

When the trees (it seemed like for a short flickering while,erm...well-lived and prehaps even ruled over us...

Much of our Alchemy time had to do wuth those old trees and maybe it is kind of like,if just for a short while only...it benefited them the most,or they seemed to be the ones mosyt prominent/involved with us and things we were doing,

A little bit like the 2nd Lord of the Rings Trilogy,I expect...

But no,I`ve come across 4 sets of twins in this life-time(fated pairings/relationships...these included Twinsoul blending with my `other half` and also (with Goodman)...kind of like a woman version of me...

Somebody that is coming to you from the same or a simlaer place to me,

(well,they are Sovereign Night basically-these two)

 But even so,I would have to say that my `reluctant pairing` with my own shadow self or dark-side probably  was the one most-that went to Planet 9,

I mean,it was absolutely fantastic for a few weeks, after that just about everything in the Universe was crawling all over us both and it all got a biy squashed and suffocating,

He`s certainly another one you might expect to see on a `Wanted` or `Have you seen this Man` flyer...

Well,he`s the worst one in the Universe,him..

(the no1 Baddie)

You know, it`s a bit like that really !!!

Myowl

Oh yes,

back to the real issue here...getting my next claim in !!!!!

I was sectioned at Castle Hill hsospital under the mental health act eventually anyway(what they reduced me to), anyway while I was there I was put on several `calming` drugs which I just kind of went along with,swallowed and counted down mu days remaining in the stupid place,

I had £20`000 in the bank still from my house sale profits and so you can imagine what I was like,Ii didn`t want to be stuck in there a day longer than I had to be...I wanted to be out there `attacking my money` and living it up, but anyway upon my release-the powers that be decided that a fortnightly risperidone injection would be the right following-on course of treatment for me...frankly,I didn`t really think too much about it at the time oranything...I just wanted to ge their boxes ticked and get the hell out of there, but anyway-this was just the beginninhg, I would much late on realize...

Because of these follow-on fortnightly risperidone injections which I agreed to go along with(not thinking too much of it or anything, I was like a frigging corpse or a dull,unresponsive,creative-less,constant feeling of like `old man dullness` erm,my sex driveappetite apparantly gone...and in my outlook/attitude/demeanour...very down and very kind of like...what`s the point in anything-ish,

Worse still, I didn`t know it at the time but this evil personality killing course of treatment meant I couldno longer get off my tits on speed(amphetamine sulphate)

Nnot knowing it was theeffect of this rispeidone and thinking it must just have been very poor quality stuff floating about for some time now...and wanting to get away all the time from theawful downward-spiralling tranquilizing effect of the bloody awful stuff they had put me on...I ended up spending thousands and thousands of pounds just trying to get off my bloody tits, (you know-like I normally would do)

Ii would probably still be in money now if they hadn`t put me onto that c*p,which I feel did meabsolutely no good whatsoevetr,and I would have been enjoying my life more than any other time with all that money in my pocket to spend,

As it was,probably the worst 5 or 6 months of my life...kind of like-just stuck somewhere I didn`t want to be and uncomfortable/not with myself really either-because of the drugs powerful-personality/enthusiasm/zest Removing functions type.

(It`s an anti-psychotic and the current default course of treatment for those suffering with schizopjrenia)  

But anyway,I knew I wasn`t `ticking right` and hadn`t been `ticking right` for some time and it was then trhat I began to look up the drug which I`d been under the influence of ever since leaving the hospital 4,5 or 6 months agoo...

As soon as I began reading up on it and what it does(effects on the person) I knew it was totally the wrong thing for me,nut even then...the stuff remains in your system fot up to 7 weeks after your last injection,

I carried on taking the speed anyway even though I was probably wasting my money-kjust to get away from the crappy effects/feelings that went with the other thing...

So basically they were the worst 6 months of my life and they should have been the best !!!!

 Isthere smebody I could sue on the strength of this argument,or go to to get my money back,

iI mean,they really did take 6 months out of my life without even asking, 6 months where I could have been totallyoff my tits/having the time of my life..

Seriously though, I certainly wouldn`t be too ptoud or anything about accepting a  handout here over this one....

I wouldn`t be too proud to accept a hand-out at all..I`ll probably need one to buy him back....

Now in the hands of 1 thieving little Scumbag(or his mates)

Myowl